Thursday, June 23, 2005
16:35
redirect to: agirlundercover.blogspot.com
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
09:49
i've moved. i'll let you know more when my other has become more permanent.
anywaysss. i'm back! newyork was interesting. i went everywhere! almost. too bad i only adjusted to it during my last week there. the school kept reminding me of willy. i can see him enjoying it there. he's like that. to me at least. then he'll forget all about me here. narhhgh.
oh well, there's still my trip there next year. now i gotta go get a job and save up.
till then, i've got better things to worry about. haha
i'm gonna be a doctor for those of you still wondering. my dad accepted on my behalf. and i'm bonded for five years, excluding housemanship. that's real real real long. and the fees are even more than i imagined. to think that i had a backup plan of leaving the profession if i dont make consultant. no time for that with my bond. it'll be fun. but it'll be my life. no regrets i guess. no time to lead the high life i want to lead. oh wells. maybe after fifteen years i'll leave for private practice. take up that open job offer in the friendly environment i got used to. maybe maybe. for now, i've just got grants, all sorts of health tests, driving, the job, and partying plans to take care off.
ratface texted me. amazing right?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
23:12
answering questions..
1) i went away on a one week mission trip to mambang di awan, perak. it was very fufilling. less on what we did, but more on the lessons learnt. God is truly amazing. He has the plan. we may prepare but for the best, God leads. we were initially discouraged at the doors closed, but the door he opened, for us to reach out to this amazingly educated and talented tamil lady, (who speaks like a thousand languages), certainly showed us God is in control. its wonderful how God speaks, to reassure the disheartened and comfort the discouraged. our team really bonded, despite minor relationship problems we had. all worries about our exam results were calmed and seemed so insignificant when we were in God's glory. we interacted with the local youths there and forged friendships that will never be forgotten.
[detailed stories later]
2) speaking of results, i did decently well. not that it matters anyway.
3) i'm on attachment with raffleshospital now. learning alot. tired but fun.
4) i'll be going on a one month mission trip to east asia, in april.
5) i have decided to leave this forever. for good. i have no use for this anymore. no need to voice frivolous comments about people and things around me on this platform at this moment.
so goodbye. it was nice while it lasted. -waves-
Sunday, February 20, 2005
17:51
i'll be leaving soon. for a week first. i'll miss reach. i'll miss seeing them perform in full costume, with the lights. designed the lightning this time round. hope it comes out as intended.
having mixed feelings about going. excited yet a little afraid too.
i wanna dance for easter. too bad i'll be away by then. urgh..
met gtang the other day outsided tangs. (gtang outside tangs, yh ate from han's, haha~) we msged. he went, "have a good weekend. catch up with you another day. dinner maybe?" i didnt know what to say. smths i just get shocked easily.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
01:18
a poem bout me. that'll be nice.
^angelix^ disillusionxd duckie. ??????????? says:
its 1.25am and i'm talking to cheryl
ok. that's all for today. i'm tired.
yes,
Happy Birthday yh!!!Sunday, February 13, 2005
23:40
aloof at a distance; removed.
i'm still grasping with the fact that he called me aloof.
i was only bored.
i feel stuffed from these past few days of feasting.
i bought a new outfit today.
i purchased flowers today.
audrey and nick left today. i didnt go see them off. there goes nick. the sort of eye candy with nice clothes and who plays bball pretty well. bye byee.. hope you guys have a safe trip! -waves-
we sold all our bands.
i'm meeting jerry soon. he'll be calling to arrange. -grins-
today mx told me, 'she's looking at your hair.' i dunno if its a good thing, them telling me about others. it kind of gets me noticing others. is it meant to boost my ego by any chance? -think of possibilities- ninghan used to say she felt weird going out, cause pple look. i assumed before that, that it was because we were in uniform. anyhow, i dont want it to get to my head. i know it wont yet.. cause i'm still not convinced that this style really works for me. the level of confidence is not high enough yet.. still its never too early for precautionary measures, to remember that humility
is a virtue.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
01:55
what a really enjoyable time i've had.
today: serve was alright. i've been affectionately called 'funkygirl'. a nice change from the previous i suppose. :) then we had our attachment and headed off to mx's place to shower.
met chiyon and we started another one of our conversations. highly entertaining. i think the thing i love most about our outings must be the car rides. we went to collect the wrist bands (to save samuel the trouble of collecting them tmr) and guess what? i met my jerry again! yeahhhh~ -grins- we were telling him about gary when we discovered that the guy i called was jerry. debates about whether it was my jerry sprung, and obviously i won. -grins again- so we went and rang the bell and collected the bands. chatted about his weary appearance, eyebags and all (kinda reminded me of angel), about his singing, then we left. outside the door, i turned and rang the bell again. of course to ask that question, "can i take a picture with you?" how.. expected huh?
jerry cant recognise me. but i supposed so. i had long hair and was in a dress back then.
dinner was with answering calls and replying msges. with help of course. interesting. which reminds me, i still have no idea what they sent.
caught a movie. ran into so so so many people. i swear, i've never been to such a crowded place than this. and its not even a holiday. yes, half the world just walked pass without recognising me. thanks. -shrug-
met ryan after didi told me to. thanks. talked to him for a while.. he looked pretty different. maybe even better. -thinks- i dunno. then chiyon and mx deserted me. like really.. couldnt even find them with wilson escorting. so we just chatted while they returned. he's one funny guy. i just had to laugh after the handing over ceremony. then it was another interesting car ride back. nice huh?
yes, i had to climb over the gate today. all the lights were off. what's up with that? turned out it wasnt intentional. she didnt know i wasnt back. anyhow, it was my mum who opened the door for me. even before i reached it. efficient right? haha~ remind me to bring keys along.
and you ask, what about angel.
Friday, February 04, 2005
21:50
kEn says:
glad to hear that... its just funny without u in serve
kEn says:
cuz i got no one to talk to
i just had this compulsion to put this here. i never knew. i just thought he enjoyed keeping to himself, the same way i enjoy it at times. a chord struck in me. i dunno what to say.. just..
oh my!! you wouldnt believe what he just told me. like
?!?!?!!!! eeps! yikes!!! i'm pretty freaked. -hides-
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
22:56
today.
interesting attachment with dr saw.
busride home with jsty.
entertaining class.
open heart surgery. bypass. i had quite a number of questions to ask. but dr saw seemed angry and scary. i would feel more comfortable asking dr ong. but he's less snr. remind me to ask daniel.
happening nonetheless. they just cut through everything. burnt all the vessels shut, pried open his ribs, used an electric saw. the scrub lost a gauze. the aircon was screwed up. i must remember to be healthy. i dont want anyone to cut me up like that. yikes! i prayed silently that this sick old guy wouldnt die. i mean, dumb scrub to miscount the gauzes and only to notify everyone once activity has been transferred back to the heart, once everything is being stiched up. silly silly mistake. it could kill him. anyhows, the missing gauze was only found, after the patient was reopened, stiches removed and all, the irritated heart being lifted up, and the best thing was that it wasnt inside. it was in some nurses glove. how wonderful huh? its a life you're working with.. its someone's dad, someone's granddad. you just dont mess around like that. an interesting and fun job still..
quite fun with jsty, aka cbnt. he actually resembles cbno slightly. not as fun as with eu though.. -shrug-
i was so off today. i guess standing and freezing for five hours drained all my energy for tonight. i was pretty off, even though she went, "the boys, and cheryl. and.. -blahblah-" actually she didnt call me cheryl. but nmind.
i'm so jealous. christopher doesnt talk to me. not all the time anyway. remember you said, its my andy and your christopher. well, you cant say that in the same breath anymore. for starters, andy doesnt even have my number much less text msg me. and i dont even see him. i realise that we have the same initials. haw haw haw. and he still looks like snoopy.
i must start getting ready for new year.
"goodnight.. to you"
Monday, January 31, 2005
01:23
zhong cai didnt say 'bye' to me today. :/
this week has been a really long one. it felt like one month. guess it happens when there's just too much huh? anyways, i shall note the weird things i said.
(on guys)
"i like guys who smell nice."
"i like guys with short hair."
"i wont go out with a guy thinner than me."
"i wont go out with a guy who eats less than me."
"i dont like shy guys."
smths i just amuse myself. wonder where that came from.
on another note, i'm pretty dissapointed with myself. i tried to be strong. it just became unbearable, manifesting itself in physical discomfort. bombarded from all aspects of me, i bent. just cave in. "provide a way out so you can stand up under it." hmms.. i was too overwhelmed. when i'm ever so determined, the worse it gets. i shall be prepared the next time.
Monday, January 24, 2005
23:48
what an eventful day packed with loads of fun! we should do this more often.
i must learn to be fair.
i miss everything about you.
i was looking at tim's photo of us during new year. they just brought back memories and a smile on my face. our dumb shots and classic poses. caught in the act and all.. with timmy's silly grin, joyce's dimples and my dumb smile. its as if we captured the essense of everything in those few photos. we've all grown up. i missed my chance to catch my friends over breakfast.
my photos are ready. my dad deleted some shots of me and christopher. -grr- oh wells. now there's the hassle of slotting everything in the album.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
22:10
withdrawal symptoms.
i dont wanna go back for Serve tmr.. -whines-
